This really is me just rambling…

Well I have 15 mins before the next two kids wake up so I figure I better do something useful with my time instead of surfing FB. I realize it’s been about a week since I posted anything. The week got away from me, would be a great excuse for not writing. That’s just not true though. I did have time to write and I didn’t. I didn’t force myself to do anything. My brain was screaming at me that I was being counter productive but look who won that battle…Being productive and busy is great but sometimes you just need that break. I needed a break…a long break. My life is changing and transitioning in ways I thought I’d never have to deal with. Add to that a new sleep schedule, that I’m finally adjusting to, and you get one hot mess!

I had to take a little time to do damage control, and for me that had to be mindless activity. I actually got to watch the whole 2nd season of Orange is the New Black!! I was so excited that I could just sit and watch episode after glorious episode, amazing! The rest of the time I honestly don’t know what I did. My activity was truly that mindless. I did however take some of that mindless time to sit and think. To look at my life from the outside. What I have found is that I need to work on me more. Not that I haven’t been doing that, because I can see a difference in the person I was several months ago and the person I am becoming. There are some things about myself that I just ignore because it’s easier to. It’s actually pretty hard to be honest with yourself and admit that ‘yeah you could use some improvements’. Β I don’t think anybody wants to admit that they real flaws. I hear this quite often: if people don’t like me the way I am then they can move on. Now I’m the first to admit that I totally get that. You shouldn’t change yourself for anyone, you have to be true to yourself and all that jazz. But can you improve on that? Certainly. We can all improve.

Now I think I have some pretty good qualities going for myself and I think most people do, but I do have assholish (spell check will love that) ones too. Not going to get around that. I have a kimchi temper(look it up), I am opinionated, I’m stubborn as hell, too many more to mention. These are the things that need improving because if I saw those qualities in another person it would probably be a huge turnoff. There’s some quote or wise words about things you don’t like in other people are a mirror image of the qualities you don’t like in yourself. Makes sense, so while I say take me as I am, guess I shouldn’t expect someone to accept my Ahole qualities and never complain. So instead I am just going to work on improving those things about myself. And yes, I did need to take that break to step back and really look at things…hmm sounds like a setback that I just learned a lesson from. πŸ˜‰

Have a great day and I hope the sun is shining for you!

Lynn

 

Hi I'm Lynn, stay at home "momprenuer" to four little chitlins. Just trying to make it in this crazy world with my sanity intact! Would love to connect! @crazypeach on Instagram & pinterest. @cr8zPeach on twitter, cr8zypeach on Tumblr and Lynn Guthrie-Robinson on FB

6 thoughts on “This really is me just rambling…”

  1. I love the part about not changing for others, but can you improve yourself. I was just thinking about that the other day after our little Mom Date. Growing up , growing in to a better person is not changing for others but changing to better yourself for you. For a better life.

  2. I just had a little moment like that. I realized that I don’t need to argue my point to ground. I don’t need to try and make people feel stupid if they don’t agree with me. But I also realized I should appreciate my husband more. He puts up with a lot of my loudmouth behavior in silence. So I need to check myself. Thanks for the reminder! Great blog!

    1. Thanks Jess, I’m glad you got a chance to read this and that you got something out of it. Funny, I don’t often reread what I write (because I am my own worst critic) but I reread this and will probably do it again since whatever lesson I put in there, I put in for myself. I have times like those where I have to step back and realize that my point of view isn’t always the right one nor that it’s the right time to put it out there. And yes the people we love the most are often the ones that sit back and silently let us be ourselves whether they like it or not,part of that love thing I guess. But it’s nice to know that you see a part of you that you can work on for the benefit of creating a better relationship with your husband. By the way you guys do seem to have a pretty good relationship already, improvements to yourself will just make it that much better πŸ™‚ Love ya cuz!

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